I suppose your right. I'm trying to change some of my ways not just because it's a 180 but because it's something that needs to change anyways. Flying off the handle isn't exactly the best way to handle my problems.
I have had no contact with her since Saturday. It hasn't been easy but I have managed. Missing her comes in big waves and then subsides to a small war in my mind. One of the hardest parts is the images of her being with another guy. That's torture for me. I just don't see how it's done so effortlessly on her part. I guess it's as her brother once told me she's not right in the head at all and eventually all her lies will catch up to her.
Today my plans are to go jogging here shortly,put out some more applications,go to the store,repainting my desk because it's gotten slightly scuffed up over the years,going to take my dogs for a walk this evening,go to the hospital to see my dad & probably go see my little brother.
