I can take that punch!

[Redo]

Thanks y'all!!

I could not keep it from my daughter. When italked to her on sunday, i showed her some of the pics while i was in the air (goofy looking due to the wind). She got a real kick out of them. Wife did ask me if i went skydiving and how it felt and how i was able to do it etc. I did answer her, but only to the point. It was extremely awkward. She was always the only person i always talked to whenever i had something so say. I wanted us to do this together. But i keep telling myself that i have to let all the bad stuff in this year go. Otherwise it is very hard to move on. Like this morning when i came across some pictures of daughter when she was only 9 months. She looked so cute. And all she wanted was us to hold her. How much she has grown now. I have missed most of her first 2 years because wife was constantly at her parents. Sometimes it was because of our relationship. Majority because she wanted a break due to daughter's food allergies.

Looking at those photos did bring me down this morning. because I can never get those times back with my daughter. But i guess i'll have to let these things go if i want a better future with her.

Honestly, jumping from that airplane felt easier to do than deal with these complex emotions.