Stop the Coaster, I want OFF!

[ninelives]

No Starsky, I havent been smart for the most part in fact I have been very very dumb. I have had this image of something that I wanted back so badly but I know its not there and may have never been there. I dont know her anymore and May have never known her.

I dont know what else to say at this point. I guess I could update.

I was walking my dog actually trying to find her to talk to her one last time. She will not talk to me now. Which I guess is a blessing.

I even walked past to where her boyfriend works and I said to myself, if I see her van outside there, thats my final closure.

Sure enough, there it was, but now it gets better.

Her boyfriend came out to confront me.

OM: YOu forced yourself on top of her 9

M; Is that what she said?

OM: She said you forced yourself on top of her

M: We made love , yes.

OM: BS, she would never make love to you, she is repulsed by u
OM: You are a low life piece of scum. You manipulate her so much, you force her to do that. Like you have all along.

The bruises on her legs, that making love.

( I am just about to lose it)

M: First of all dont you say my name, you arent worthy to say my name, secondly, who is the effing piece of dung that cheated on his wife when she was pregnant and preyed on a weak, sick woamn.

OM: I didnt love my wife, but you raped yours throughout your marriage.

M: Is that what happened . We were married for 17 years, I suppose that was rape. Why am i even justifying this to a piece of shlt like yourself.

YOu know what , I cant even go on with this conversation. I am officially done with my wife. There is no point in going on ANY longer.

She told him that she was repulsed by my hair,( hairy greek body) and that she regretted marrying me on our wedding night. That she NEVER loved me and it goes on.

I DONT need to be hit with anymore 2x4's. I handled the DBing poorly and really there is nothing left for me and her. She is a sick woman and maybe she will get healthy and find happiness but I dont know.

I dont care anymore. She has said way to much negative things and I cant trust her again ever. She will try and make my life a living hell I am sure but I guess thats what i can expect.

Thanks to all that have helped here. You are trully an Amazing bunch of people. God bless to all of you and I will be back again to check up but I think, I need a break from all this.

Its tough to swallow that your entire marriage has been a lie and that the woman you would have died for NEVER loved you. ITs such a tough pill to swallow right now.

I guess he will ruin my potential relationship with new Ow for me as well. OM said he will tell her what has happened between us.

I guess thats what she meant when she said that very soon she will do some things to me. I guess in the end I deserve it.

I am so weak for her that I slept with her depsite all my GAL and trying to move on. I guess I became a cheater too.

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