WAW, Filing as Fast as Possible

[aeolianchaos]

Thanks for chiming in, Lilagirl!

like what do you have "active" in you and your vibration that is allowing you to feel like this

Here are some that spring to mind:

Low sense of self-worth. Lack of authentic connection w/ much of my core. Internalized sense of inadequacy. Fears of rejection and abandonment.

All of these things are in my consciousness, now, as habits of thought that I have engaged in, and have a choice to move beyond and 'break old agreements.'

I forget where, but I read this "You can only have a relationship as good as the one you are willing to lose." I take that to mean that if you are scared to really open up and be honest w/ your partner on a certain level, that is the level the relationship is going to stay at.

An interesting derivation of this is, "you can only have the relationship with yourself as good as the one you are willing to have". In being really honest w/ yourself, there can be some stuff that is unpleasant, but if you go through it - there's a good payoff.

wanting what I want but not worrying about how I'm going to get it.. as long as you keep feeling good

The first therapist I saw said something that registered deeply for me: Happiness is Fleeting, Contentment runs a lot deeper. I'm paraphrasing that and I will say more about this in a separate post, but I think it helps me to keep it in mind.

wrap yourself in love ... Find gratitude and appreciation in what you can, then get up and start your day.

Yes - i agree with this, although in practice I still struggle with it. I was doing well for a while but w/o much that I 'need' to do (many people have an institutional obligation to be somewhere.. I have to figure these things out for myself every day) I often get stuck.