W:Do you blather on and on about stories about your former town for this poor little btch. Yawn! Oh i hear she is hyper. So hopefully not as scatterbrained as you idiot. You will match each other perfectly. Two idiots running around like chickens with their heads cut off. I cant wait to move the hell away from here, from you from everyone. Oldest son wont care and youngest, well he will be fine. He doesnt need me. I need him too much.
And now it gets nuts:
She phones me. And continues the assault/ I stick to my DB guns at the outset. I say . If you are going to continue to assault me, then its best we hang up.
W: NO please, Im sorry. I just feel that you are rubbing my nose in it by seeing another woman so soon and introduing him to youngest son.
M: You are joking right? YOu sleep with OM for a year and a half and then you are seen at theatres with him and youngest son and his oldest son and you have the gaul to say this to me.
We talk back and forth, she is focussed on this young girt Im with for the longest time , says a few more things about how I ignored her all the time.
I do validate for awhile and express again how sorry she felt that way in our relationship. She is crying to the point where I cant understand her half the time. She says something rude again about new girl and I said there is no point of talking further.
I end the call.
She calls back and apolopgizes. WE talk some more and I cant remember half of it. My head is spinning and I just want to get off the phone, I invite her here to talk.
Meanwhile , OW has left long ago and leaves me a note. WE are to play soccer tonight.
My wife comes over and I should never have had her here with my present state. My head is seriously spinning.
I will try to remember but there was so much said in the four hours we had together.
We rehash our marriage again about how she never felt needed or wanted. I told her to listen to the Willie Nelson song, as it sums up my feeling for her through out our marriage.
Get 2x4's ready.
I told her I loved always, would have died for her and would have done almost anything to be the husband she wanted. I just didnt know what she wanted. She is crying, I am crying. She tells me how sorry she is for hurting me so much and that she still loves me and always has. She thinks about me all the time.
I say, except when you are banging OM, then Im sure you think about him. I ask if she loves him and she doesnt answer. Then says she cares for him and doesnt want to keep hurting people.
M: Buts its ok to hurt ME and our family. The people you are supposed to be there for , instead, you are with some bum.
W: I know you think hes a monster , I dont know how i feel about him, I dont know if i can love him or anyone. Im effed up and have always been, Why would you want to be with me. This new girl has it all , why would you sacrifice that.
M: Because I took our marriage vows very seriously. Sickness and in health, better and worse etc. I swore to stand beside you no matter what. I loved you so much
W: Loved? That means you dont anymore right.
M: I dont knonw what I feel. I will always love you in some capacity, you know that. You are in my soul, I cant just separate you.
W: But you dont want to be with me anymore.
M: YOu are with another man, Remember.
W: You went in OUR boat with another woman and our son. how could you do that?
M: You told me to move on with my life. And even if you didnt, what am I supposed to do. Wait for you while you possibley sort out what you are going to do with OM?
W: NO, I want you to be happy. I really do.
M: I wish I could believe that. Your texts this morning state otherwise. You even said you hate me/
W: Im just angry and jealous. Thats normal. I know that you will be happier with her than with me
M: YOu dont know anything. You just assume. I cant keep waiting for you. I have given you every chance to end it with him but you never did and still continue
W: I want to end it sometimes but I dont know how, He has somethin over me.
M: Like what, what does this piece of crap have over you. You are my angel. You are way out of his league.
W: I cant tell you. I just cant
M; Has he threatened you?
W: No,
M: Has he threatened harm to himself.
W: NO, I dont want to get into it.
M: Dont you think you owe it to our marriage to tell me. At least I can understand.
W: I cant get into it OK. Maybe someday I can tell you.
M: By that time it wont matter maybe. I cant wait forever.
W: I dont expect you to.
( She cried and cried uncontrollably, I held her, i kissed her. She kissed me back, first time in about a year she kissed me with passion and actually hugged me)
W: I have an illness that I have been diagnosed with that I havent told anyone.
M: NOt even numbnuts.
W: Nobody, If I tell you promise you wont tell anyone.
M: YOu know I wont ( except this board)
W: I am bipolar
M: DIagnosed.
W: Yes
M: I am sorry but it doesnt excuse you being with an OM for this long. Im sorry , not making light.
W: Im so effed up all the time and I have been for a long time.
( she is crying like crazy)
I am too.
We compose ourselves. We talk again for a long time. We are hugging and then she kisses me. I kiss back.
Then I ask her if we can ML , again. Last time was so bad. She is apprehensive but continues to kiss me. We go into OUR bedroom and we ML. Just like old times when we first got together. She comments on my new body, and this goes on for sometime and then , fireworks. I could not believe that it was actually happening. We lay there , naked, cuddle talk etc...
W: Wow I cant believe that happend
M: Me either, wtf
Honestly folks I cant remember much although we talked for a long time.
We teased each other, we kissed, held hands. It was crazy.
And Im thinking, What the hell is going on.
Sorry, I need to go somewhere and compose myself for the next part of this , because It doesnt get any more sane.
9
WOW!
So now she's cheating twice?
Bi-Polar?
Geez 9! What a can a crap that just opened up on you. Just when you think it couldn't get any worse.
