So apart from the conversation on the porch swing in the morning first thing, that is everything.

So. I am simply going to keep my contact with her to a minimum. Not rude, but not cheerful or outgoing either. I will wait for her to approach me.

I do feel that my reactions were genuine and I am entitled to my feelings, and the anger that will come soon too.. I promise to leave the house when I feel anger. A nice long walk will clear my head.

I don't know how I will be able to trust in her though. It will always run through my mind when she leaves "is she going out to see him?".

Just the thought of another man touching her drives me crazy.

How do I deal with that?

I bought the book "not just friends" today. I'm am 180 pages in. It is a very good book.

Me 45 W 34 W.A.W.
3K. D11 S9 D6
M 12 y T 13 y
Bomb drop 02/22/2011
2nd written bomb (Letter bomb) 05/31/2011
Affair (A bomb) revealed 07/03/2011