Supposed to be working but can't get my mind thinking straight right now. I am so torn between giving up and continuing to fight. He has given me no hope for the last two months. So why do I want to continue to fight for our marriage? I just don't understand myself sometimes. He still says he doesn't know what to do. But he's gone, we only really interact wrt the children. How do you continue to DB when you have such little communication? We spoke through email briefly again about him selling the boat. I told him to think it through and that I didn't want him to regret it later, but that if he wanted to sell it and thought it was a good idea to go for it. I also told him that I knew it was an exciting time for him, moving into his own place etc, and it was nice to see him making decisions that will hopefully make him happier. Very short note from me. He wrote back saying he wouldn't characterize him moving as 'exciting' but that he was happy to be out of his mother's house b/c he had long over stayed his welcome there. He also said again that the only reason he is considering selling the boat is because he cant afford to keep storing it (we never bothered taking it out of storage this summer for obvious reasons) and that he got a good offer on it. Anyways, I have a really good group of girlfriends supporting me through all of this - but they are very insistent that I walk away. That he is probably seeing someone. And that him not being able to firmly say that its all over and that he wants a divorce is simply him not wanting to be the 'bad guy'. Gosh I dont know what to think anymore. I'm getting the same advice left right and centre from all my friends, but I really don't think they understand. And I haven't told them about the anti-depressants. I keep posting, hoping someone can offer me a different opinion on the situation but I know thats just wishful thinking.
