Another nickel to SG for putting out there that LRT is NOT a long term (or permanent) effort. The main premise of LRT is to help remove ourselves from the drama / roller coaster so that we have a chance to ground and centre ourselves.
It might be time for me to pull back on some LRT like dark. I feel more stable and it might be time for me to shine a little light and see if I can manage more contact.
One reason why I feel that could be the case is, the last time my W and I sat and talked, while I was picking up the kids, it was very pleasant. I did not feel uncomfortable at all and my W appeared the same.
I will say that while I am very close to being full on, emotionally detached, I did have a few moments of anxiety as I thought about my W at a weekend concert she just attended, knowing that OM would have been there. It was short lived, and I am again feeling OK.
So that is something I will consider over the next couple weeks. Letting off on some of the LRT and seeing where that takes me.
Let's see if I'm really as detached as I think I am...
