It is 244 am and i just can sleep. thank you for the comments.
I am aware that she isnt moved in yet, but she was emotional when she said she wanted to come home. She really misses the kids, and our talk last week when i broke down might have been what she needed. I dont know, but she did say she couldnt live in her husbands house and have a boyfriend. She also said she couldnt be single for the next 11 years either.
Maybe me telling her that things could change and maybe in the future we could fix things was what she needed? maybe she needed reassurance from me? Who knows? cant read her mind so i have to stop worrying about her reason for coming home.
I have to focus on me and the kids for the next couple of weeks. stay focused on changing me and not get bogged down with thoughts of her and all the why questions.
I think it is very crucial that i give her as much space as she needs over the next couple of weeks. I will avoid all conversations that dont pertain to the kids. keep doing what i am doing and make sure that i dont drift into the "are you sure" or "i am happy" kind of talk.
This will be super hard and i also realize she will need more time, maybe even months to put the affair behind her.
