4evah'n'evah... awww maaan...

[aeolianchaos]

And from the moment that I met my W, she even called herself a princess and behaved in ways that suggested she was money focused, and her family was money focused, and many people (friends) told me she was money hungry...

I think I can relate to this a little bit.. would it be fair to say that your W's family lives an aspirational lifestyle? Lot of focus on $$ and brand names? is it really just about the $$ or is there something underneath that idea that is motivating her so strongly? Is her sense of self-worth closely linked to a number?

Is there something about your attitude regarding work or money that is contributing to her feeling that you need to make more? Is she drawing the wrong conclusion from your behavior?

Can you empathize with her mindset? I can't - my answer when someone asks me how much I'd like to make is, "enough."

But... I don't have to be right... but I am too proud to go out there, right now, and get a job... make a living, start becoming the bread winner in this new life before me... because I do not want my W to suddenly see me making money and then coming to me saying she is willing to work it out... because I DO NOT want to be right... that it is all about the money... I DO NOT want her back, if a job will make the difference for her to change her mind...

Have you ever tried any of the tests like RIASEC? Its fun to highlight your strengths, and It might give you some ideas that you haven't really considered, for things that might actually be interesting for you and possibly even gratifying.

What happens when you think of working a 'job'? Does your pulse race? Do you get bothered just thinking about it? Do you have some fears associated with it (like, having your life consumed by work..)?