Kissak - I don't post to you very often, but I think you are amazing. You really have put up with a lot from your husband over the years, and you are really taking charge of your life and standing up for yourself. It's a very cool thing to witness. I agree with Eric, that there is a little part of you that still fears completely letting him go. You don't need to fear it. As Eric says, live your life. Just keep filling up your life and literally take the spotlight in your head off him and keep putting it back on to you.
She is quite amazing, isn't she, Walking?
~ swl
p.s. the rest of your post was spot on as well. Talk about perplexing, eh?
Look not mournfully into the past. It comes not back again. Wisely improve the present. It is thine. Go forth to meet the shadowy future, without fear. {Henry Wadsworth Longfellow}
