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[RedNailPolish]

When I read your posts 25 I feel like you know something I dont. You are so confident and I am so lost.

Things took another backward step on the weekend. H dropped S3 off on Saturday and we were meant to go to the park briefly to go finalise my application for childcare rebate. However, S3 was very upset about having to leave H and come home to me. Typical toddler tantrum but it upset H very much and he took off.

H then sent me a text to apologise and asked to have more access to S3. He wants to have him all weekend one week and then most of the weekend the following. This really upset me because it was only two weeks ago that he came to me to let me know that he did not want to change the custody of S3 and he was happy as things were. Now here we are again. Urrrgggghhh. I am also unhappy because I am not a stay at home mum and the weekends are when S3 and I spend most of our time together.

H and I got into a little bit of a heated argument via text. I ended up telling him I was hurt and upset by his confusion and continually wanting different things (probably referring to other things as well).

So another fight and more NC from H.

I was very upset and ended up calling MIL. She discussed the situation with me at lenght and made me feel a little better. She does think that H spending more time with S3 can only be a good thing. She tried to assure me that things will get better. But who really knows.

Need more focus on me and GAL.