Boy do I feel that! I cannot wait to look back on this and say "That sucked, but boy am I stronger and happier and done with it."

I'm probably 80% "positive" thinking (as in, "I can't wait until we are back together and building a new marriage") and 20% negative. Working to make that 95/5, but it's slow going.

Are you doing any "self soothing" or "self centering" stuff? Yoga, meditation, visualization, anything? I find that it helps me stay in control (even on days like today when H is mopey and cranky because he's decided, against all common sense, to go off caffeine.)

I like the iPhone apps by Andrew Johnson, and there are some less specific ones called "Simply Being" that help. Pilates and yoga also help because they make me feel more in control and like I'm doing good stuff for me.

Too bad you don't live close - we could be each other's GAL buddy. wink

H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11