Devastated

[aeolianchaos]

Back home to my new reality as a single mum and business owner.

I know this feeling: back to life.. back to reality (remember that song?)

You probably didn't do everything to make this situation the way it was.

Part of life is learning to appropriately recognize the proportionate amount of responsibility we have for what we find ourselves in.

As 25yearsmlc is fond of pointing out on here - knowing what we did gives us POWER - not guilt. So yes, take a REALISTIC look in the mirror, but recognize that you are also a wonderful person who is dealing with themselves and that your H is also a wonderful person dealing with himself in many ways too.

DBmod nailed a lot of this already - let yourself focus on you and your well being.

You can, and will, feel better than you do right now. To quote my favorite band :
"You deserve the best, but its up to you to get it."