The stuck part...? You are getting it... I will leave that stand some more. More time for you to look at it, understand it, own it... You have the rest of your life to understand the stuck, give it some more thought. There is more there. Stay out of the emotion when looking at it. See it from the logical side, as you did at the beginning of your previous post. It will, eventually, sink in.
To touch only briefly on my continued posting here. I do not know others have backed away from posting on your thread. What I DO know, is when I see that someone is getting good support, and I have nothing further to add, I generally refrain from posting. I am here to support everyone I feel can use my support. I silently support those whose threads I do not contribute much to.
Continue to work on hope and understanding. I believe in YOU. I believe that YOU deserve a better life. I do not know that better life is saving your M or getting D and moving on. That is not a picture for me to paint.
What I DO know is, as you paint a picture of a better life for YOU. One that is not full of drama, regret, self doubt, recrimination... Rather one that is full of personal safety, love (of self), respect (of self), personal growth and enlightenment. Peace and prosperity. The positive, nurturing, loving R that you will create with your children... That will put a HUGE smile on my face, because I will KNOW that you are moving forward to a MUCH BETTER place, that you DESERVE, that your kids deserve, that your W deserves... Because you are all worthy of that. It is your RIGHT to be happy and healthy. And happy and healthy might... just might... be full and complete surrender to D.
Focus on your kids. You love them, they love you, and they deserve the best father you can be. 100%. There is no 110% and there is no 90%. Show them how committed you are of their well being by being 100% committed to their happiness with your gift of love and understanding of them!
