I can feel the pain in your post, I know you are hurting badly.
You are right-you WILL come out of this a better man. And the changes you have made for yourself are good changes, and not a lot of people have the courage to change their lives.
Honestly, I don't know how to tell you to move on from this, because I don't know the answer to it either. They say everything gets easier with time, so I guess maybe it's a wait and see type of thing.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤