Thank you. The last couple days I really feel somethings are starting to change for me. First, I really realized I am in a depression. It was the first thing that really made sense to me. This divorce, the girlfriend breakup everything brought me to my knees over and over again the last few months with the insomnia as well. The insomnia comes from somewhere. It just doesnt' appear. My life was heading in the wrong direction. I was finally feeling the lonely road ahead alone. it scared the hell out of me. I made a conscience decison of no more. I get it, I can make it out. I didn't choose the depression or the things around me to happen. Day by Day.
My favorite quote from the movie American History X.
When has all this hate, ever made your life any better.
i am not going to hate anymore. I am not going to wallow in the past, there is only one way out and that is forward, not back...
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Don't know if this will help, but you have to live life day by day and not worry about tomorrow. If you have a warm bed to sleep in every night that's all you can ask for. Tomorrow will take care of itself.
