got a text last night from w letting me know a movie that I worked on was opening at the Landmark. It was a very quick and pleasant back and forth. Her saying congrats. Me saying thanks and that I was super excited. Her saying that she was so happy for me.
W hasn't initiated any contact with me in over a month. Not since I went to see the cats and she informed me she didn't want me in her life because of the shame she felt. Honestly it threw me a little. Her being pleasant, caring what was happening in my life, and expressing it.
It also provided me a ticket to get back on the rollercoaster.. which I did for a minute. I saw a glimpse of the w she was becoming in therapy. Usually she wouldn't text me because of fear that I didn't want to hear from her. Or that she didn't have a right to. I started looking into things. Also I had stupid dreams. But this morning, I got back off and was like.. I don't know the reason why she decided to text me, but it was a nice thought and I sincerely appreciated it. And that is all.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
But this morning, I got back off and was like.. I don't know the reason why she decided to text me, but it was a nice thought and I sincerely appreciated it. And that is all.
