People ask me if I knew then what I know now, would I have even dated him. I answer, " No, I would have run like hell in the opposite direction." I don't hate him, but looing back I wish I had never met him. The good times do not outweigh the hell I've been through, at least not yet. But I didn't, instead I dated and married him. How young and stupid was I, and now my kids pay the price for my stupidity and youth. That really bites.
Scylla,
I rarely post to you, we just do not understand/see things the same way at all and it's really just an exercise in frustration for both of us.
Today I'm making an exception.
That ^^^ is sad. What's worse is that you have no idea that you are choosing that mindset. YOU let him take your happy memories. YOU are chosing to believe he never loved you. YOU are rewriting history as much as he is.
Your children deserve more than that. They deserve a healthy parent that can see the truth for what it is. They deserve to feel like they were brought into this world by two people who loved each other at the time ... even if that love didn't last. You could choose to be that parent Scylla. And no, I do not assume you are saying these things in their presense but don't for a minute think they can't sense that vibe off of you daily.
Your kids pay the price? You wouldn't have those kids if you hadn't met, dated and married your husband.
I hope you get it someday, good luck to you.
PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
