Can My Marriage Be Saved?

[a girl]

A setback last night - get out your 2x4s. Not only did I start a talk out the R, H brought up the fact that he knows I look at his email. I've been unsuccessful in my attempts to not snoop.

I told him it was stupid, and born out of fear and panic, and that I was sorry. He said, "Whatever", but then said he could see why I'd do it, given things he's done in the past.

But I think this will give me the boost I need. So from now on, no more snooping.

I will feel better because it will help me detach.
I will feel better because it will be a small, consistent thing I can do to show he can trust me.

Other stuff for today - not going to avoid him, but I plan to avoid being in the same room as him as much as possible. I think it will help to feel more in control.

He's said being around me often feels "awkward", but when I'm not around, he seeks me out - yesterday I was in the bedroom due to my migraine and he came in 4-5 times about random stuff, plus called me out to the kitchen a couple times for food. It's actually very confusing.

Anyway. Today is another day in which I can do better at DBing.