Feeling Low

[FaithnAK]

Well, since my other thread was locked I guess it's time to start a new one. I do realize that I post each and every day but I feel I need to. It is my saving grace.

By all means, keep posting. You have to let it out somewhere. Better here I think. Un-biased support. Whether you like it or hate it, it's still a release and free therapy.

Sometimes I question why I am hanging on, not wanting to give up on our M when it's obvious to me that H isn't interested in a reconciliation. No, he has not brought up D, but we don't talk. Nothing. No emails, text, phone conversations, nothing. It's been this way for over a month now and it is really taking a toll on me. Maybe I should just throw in the towel and file for D myself. Tell him to come and get the rest of his things.

You've read DR right? It's ok to do things to show yourself in the best possible light. However, when you are truly happy with yourself. It is okay to to let go. It really is DG. There are many Men out there that would love to have a strong , non dependent woman that knows what she wants and who is happy and confident in who she is. The hard part is YOU knowing you are.

I think I am doing a good job of GAL for myself. Been spending time with kids, friends, and volunteering. I feel like the other areas in my life are flourishing. I've been in C for 5 months now and have made tremendous progress. I don't even feel like the same person I was at the end of 2010.

All I know is I am sick of the pain.

This is great. I think you found a true and pure way to GAL. You seek help, you do things differently, you look for new ways to be happy. Whatever you do, don't stop bettering yourself. Again, someone out there will love you for who you are.

When you are tired of the pain. You will stand up for yourself. You will feel it and your H will feel it. No matter what, it's all about getting to a place where you can move on regardless of the pain. You just need to know that you there is happiness beyond this crap. There really is.