Feeling Low

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Well, since my other thread was locked I guess it's time to start a new one. I do realize that I post each and every day but I feel I need to. It is my saving grace.

Sometimes I question why I am hanging on, not wanting to give up on our M when it's obvious to me that H isn't interested in a reconciliation. No, he has not brought up D, but we don't talk. Nothing. No emails, text, phone conversations, nothing. It's been this way for over a month now and it is really taking a toll on me. Maybe I should just throw in the towel and file for D myself. Tell him to come and get the rest of his things.

I think I am doing a good job of GAL for myself. Been spending time with kids, friends, and volunteering. I feel like the other areas in my life are flourishing. I've been in C for 5 months now and have made tremendous progress. I don't even feel like the same person I was at the end of 2010.

All I know is I am sick of the pain.