I do not think I will ever get close enough again to my xh for trust to become an issue. But in general I am less trusting and more cynical than I was, and perhaps that is something that I needed to learn. Is it a loss for me or a gain? Sad that I am no longer trusting, but perhaps more realistic.
Perhaps that is why I have avoided any further emotional entanglements - lack of trust ultimately. I have lost faith in my own judgement
