H and I fought, and I can't let go. Went crazy. Hounded him. Got into the coaster with him. Got him really anoyed and even scared of me (crazy woman who he married).
Now I feel terrible - hopeless, feeling like I destroyed something. Been crying for 3 days now. Giving myself 2 x 4's.
At least he no longer brings up separating or D when we fight.
He just said when I asked him why we have to fight, why he is not talking to me , that we are just like that - up and down, up and down. And that I better get used to it (my goodness, are we going to be like that for the rest of our lives? Its going to be short as I am going to have a heart attack in the next 5 years if it goes on this way!)
OK, for this weekend: I better DETACH big time!
I challenged Harrier to keep the avoidnce technique going on... on TUesday I will check in and see how it goes.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go
