Hoping not to be a WAW

[Gnosis]

I can't remeber the last time I wasn't angry or had flipped out on my W at least once in a 30-day timeframe.

Then you'd better figure out pretty quickly why you were angry and why you decided that your W was the person you decided to take it out on.

In the last three years, the time between outbursts has been getting much briefer.

That's probably because she was busy "checking out" and withdrawing. Not because you were any good at it.

I think 25 had you nailed from the beginning. You are a bully. Whether that is intentional or not, your mind has been trained to take out your frustrations on your W. I hope for your sake that you find another outlet to do that ASAP. Go buy a punching bag and take it out on that BEFORE you have any encounter with her.

I see that the two of you were communicating better on the forum than ever in real life. Want to know why? BECAUSE you had to stop and think of what you were going to say and you could take your time in crafting your answers.

Practice the same thing in her presence. STOP and THINK before you shoot off your mouth. I know that this is unnatural for you because of your military training and your need to react instantaneously. However, those reactions have not been working so well for you, have they?

Want to do some training? Take the next 30 days as the following bootcamp:

"For the next 30 days I'll shut my big mouth and listen to what she is saying. I'm going to try and figure out WHAT she is asking BEFORE I open my trap. And when I do open my trap I will make darned sure that what I'm going to say is NOT going to harm her."

"Likewise, I will start changing my thoughts of her to start looking at her in a more positive light. I will make this effort because my suppressed negative thoughts are part of the problem and are clouding my judgment. I have control of my thoughts and know that they lead my emotions which affect my actions."

Remember that: Thoughts lead to Emotions which lead to Actions. (T.E.A is the acronym)