Our recent changes was caused by a trip as well. Prior to that things were going as smooth as possible. then i went on the trip. For the first 3 days my W said she missed me, by then end i made a made a comment like "are you ready to have us back" and she said "no, not really." i knew what she meant but it still stung.

Meanwhile thoughts began to crystallize in her mind - the main one being wanting to live apart. I don't know if she's decided to end things or not (I do have a good idea on how she is leaning)

It's really hard not to think about what my marriage once was only a year or 2 ago. I know that does no good. You can't look forward while you're looking behind.

I'm honestly trying not to react to her. I've kinda taken the avoidance approach. this weekend should be a test though. This week as probably been my toughest since the original bomb. i'm having trouble eating and I seem to cry a lot - to myself though.

I just got off the phone with her and she was telling me about her appt with her psychiarist. Basicaly she gets her ADD perscription from him. I saw him for my depression too. she kinda filled him in on things and told me that she told him we are planning on separating but "we are trying to be optimistic."
it was hard not to react to that but I played it cool over the phone.

I been thinking and thinking and I know where my big "F" up was.

I really think we need to go back to MC, but that is on hold for a while.

I'm sorry things are rough for you. I'd love to get to a point where my W would agree tostay together in one house.

Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
--Jean Jacques Rousseau.