a girl, you seem to be making some very good baby steps. Remember that you need to look for those baby steps. This is short term pain for long term gain.
He told you that he loved you, that is positive. He is still going to MC even though he thinks it will end in divorce. So something in him still wants the marriage.
He feels that he cant trust you, put yourself in his shoes. What would you want him to do or say to reassure you that he was deserving of another chance?
You know him better then we do, really take some time and think about what you can do to start showing him that you value him as your husband, and that you want to rebuild the trust between you.
I would suggest you do get IC for yourself to work on the underlying issues you spoke of.
You are doing well, and i feel at this stage with the baby steps you are seeing that you can remind him of your mini series and see if he is interested in watching it.
Stay focused on you and the changes you are making. This is about you remember. You need to make the changes for you not for anyone else.
