i also looked at phone records. and emails. and ezpass. and what not.
it was an obsession. stopping was the best thing i could do. 2 years after the D and i still get pangs that push me to go and look again. its a tough habit to break.
the same goes for your mind. what you choose to think about becomes habit.
be careful what you fill your thoughts with, because there will be times you dont want to think them, but they'll be the mind's habit.
and you will need to actively force those thoughts out of your head, and they will keep coming back as soon as you relax.
it will be a habit to think of the situation, the wrongs, the lies, etc. and breaking your minds habit is harder than breaking the phone habit.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
