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[NNP1965]

hugs ((((WCW))))

[WCW]

Not much new, ups and downs still up and down. Interesting hearing H talk about windows of opportunity that have closed in his life. Sometimes reality hits, and [censored].

[kat727]

Hope you are doing well overall. I feel pretty good putting divorce behind me but every once and a while other issues, some created due to the divorce, sneak up on me. I guess it is all a part of life.

Thinking of you, kat

[WCW]

Hi kat, thanks for checking in. It's been tough to keep all the balls in the air, and sometimes a person just gets tired and has to let them down on the ground and take a break. Life is just too busy.

Things with H have been good, but I always want better and more. Sometimes I compare this to eating bland food, and I'm too worn out to go get the seasoning to make it better.

That was our problem before, we were too tired to fix anything. Then it broke. I KNOW I have to do better, but I can't get control of my life.

Been dealing with some physical health issues again and that's never fun.


Hope everyone has a happy and safe holiday! Happy Birthday America!

[WCW]

Another fine holiday weekend in the books. I had a good balance of work and social, with and without H.

It was so odd to listen to him say how he has been talking to another couple about coming along with us on our annual July 4 plans. The thing is we haven't done that for about 5 years together, and this year I made plans with two couples to come here for fun and bbq. H was home on time and joined the fun. Maybe the MLC fog is real!

Hope everyone had a safe holiday!

[kat727]

Glad to hear things are going well. I think maybe you just have to let some things go a bit and focus on the really important stuff. Kind of like my picking my battles with my kids. I would love things to be perfect but I am becoming more realistic.

I have spent the last 4 years getting my kids and I to better place emotionally. Now I need to focus a bit on the house and fix things little by little, I don't have the money or time to do it all at once.

Thanks for stopping by my thread. kat

[WCW]

Hi kat, that's pretty much what I've done for the past years. Focus on what's big and let the small stuff go, knowing I can't do it all at once physically or emotionally. That applies to the R/M as well as around the place.

Whether you consider it good or bad, I had the chance to do that while still legally M to H as he was about as far gone as he could be without making it final. I will always wonder why he didn't cut that last thread of the rope.

Most everyone here told me to cut the final tie, be done with him. There was something that just didn't let me make that step either. Now here we are, growing forward together again.

[BeingMe]

Do you think you will ever be able to openly discuss what happened? If not, will it bother you? I am so glad that things are working for you now.

[kat727]

Some where deep inside you must have felt that neither of you wanted to let go. So glad you trusted yourself. Life is a work in progress, if we just stopped, we might as well be dead. I prefer to keep moving!

big hugs, kat

[WCW]

BM, we have had open discussions, it just doesn't happen in one long coversation. A little at a time. More baby steps. lol I don't want to know all the details, I don't want to relive those years anymore.

kat, we need to keep our move on!

I am making my first BIG purchase since all this began. It is a relief to know my credit rating is still good despite what H's looks like. He even warned me not to list him too because his is so rotten. I feel a twinge of sympathy (I want to fix it for him). He has asked for some help, but his pride still keeps him taking much. I'm learning.