This has been a roller coaster ride I really don't like. I'm stepping off of it. It'll be hard but I feel like it's breaking me mentally. I just simply can't do this any longer with her. It's been tempting to look at her facebook and I'm trying hard to not look at it. Kind of makes me mad I was in a place most of the day yesterday where I just simply didn't want to talk to her anymore because of the things she said then she starts talking to me nicely again and it's like I just get sucked back into her insanity. I still hope our marriage ends up being able to be saved but this is just getting nuts and as hard as it is I have got to try not to talk to her. It's my only option left her I think. Which has been told to me over and over I'm just hard headed apparently.
Told she doesn't love me anymore and later we have a big blow out over all this. I tell her I'm tired of her telling me I'm her best friend and then treating me like crap. Around noon she starts texting me again saying she wants to be friends. I never reply.
About 6:30 last night when she gets home she's texting me again about the separation/divorce and the way she's wording things is like she's wanting me to talk her out of it. I just simply said if you want a divorce I won't deny it or anything. I have stood behind you on many things throughout the years but the reasons your giving me for the divorce I won't support you on. after that she doesn't text me for a little bit.
I get another text about an hour later. Her asking if we were going to see a movie next weekend. I said ok. Not my smartest move really. She sends me another about 10-15 minutes later saying I don't want to go to a movie with you. I plan to have my stuff moved out then. I said ok then don't ask me to go. She starts trying to argue and I said look your trying to argue I'm trying to be cordial. You want to argue I'll just turn my phone off. She then started being nice again saying I want to be friends with you but I'm not comfortable hanging out with you right now. I said that's ok I can find other things to do. Then she said she was going to bed because she's going in to work early this morning.
