I have to confess that I'm awfully frustrated by it taking 2 days for posts to show up - I'd love to get some advice from the smart people on this board, but it's really hard.

Anyway.

Mailed H today to tell him I was going to Farmer's Market - leaving work early. Just said "Thoughts?"

He mailed back basically asking if I was coming home first or taking the train, and then saying he had ribs smoking but didn't need to deal with them until 6:30, and then "Hrm". I took that as he wanted to come, so I just said "I could come home first, sure - did you want to come with?"

So we got S from Day Camp and headed out. We were only there for about 45 minutes (it's a small market), but S had his face painted and it was pretty fun - H bought some interesting locally made sausage.

We got home and chatted in the living room and played with the cat for a bit. Then he got quiet and pensive and then picked up his work laptop and started work.

I left to come to the office. A little while later he told me the sausage was done, did I want to come try some? He cut me off a few pieces and then went to check on the ribs. I came back downstairs - trying not to follow him around.

We're supposed to finish up a miniseries we've been watching tonight - not sure if I should remind him or not. Thinking not, as it's an invitation, but then he has a terrible memory, so I don't know.

MC tomorrow - 4th session. I really like her. We'll see how it goes - not sure it's early enough to talk about "limbo" and being stagnant.

Feeling 6/10 on the "hope" scale tonight. (In the morning I usually feel 1/10 on the hope scale, so this is better than that.)


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11