Today has been a really hard day. I find myself crying for no particular reasons throughout the day. I am trying to see the positive steps....he is wearing his ring, sleeping in our bed, asking my advice on different matters.
But is just seems so false right now. I have so little hope. His mom is driving down this afternoon and when I asked him what he wanted to tell when we had to leave for our mc session he said tell her the truth...no reason to lie. I guess that kind of deflated me, I don't know why. I guess him not caring if his family knows we are in mc scares me. Mind reading is not a good thing.
I just don't know how to act at this point...pull back, remain upbeat.
