Don't know where I am

[Harrier]

Thanks JTB and especially thanks to you Angel61.

I feel bad that I am not alone, but it's good to have your thoughts.

I did have a short telephone call with my W. She pulled back a little from yesterday and said I should focus on the worst case scenario because it just hurts myself when that hurt may not need to take place.

She did say that she has opened her mind to both full reconciliation and to divorce as well. She has no idea where it could go.

She that she is prepared to "lose everything." But would do it to spare herself from hating me. It sound odd.

We both agreed that neither would take any action (like filing) before I moved out and probably not in the first couple months.

This is too big a decision that she has to make to just go by the whims of the moment. I do worry about my ability to stay patient though.

I can only just do what I've been doing up until now.