So...am I still a newcomer?

[Telemark]

Thanks...I needed that.

I'm OK now; momentary breakdown. I read AC's response, got up and went outside to walk around our building (it's a big building). I also prayed; I prayed that God would forgive my selfishness and mean behaviors in the past, and that He would guide me in my new behaviors and actions. And I prayed that I could forgive myself and get on with things.

I've always been very self-critical and have not had a high opinion of myself, so it is easy for me to fall on my own sword. I'm slowly - very slowly - pulling away from that. Today was a step backwards. Tomorrow will be 2 steps forward.