So...am I still a newcomer?

[any chance?]

Tele:
In part, conscious or not, your W seems to be demonizing you. This provides justification for her actions to her. I know this feeling all to well. What you CANNOT do is let that demonization drag you down. This is her view in her world right now, and should not be your view in your world. Try to keep it in perspective. M's are partnerships, and there are two sides to all aspects.

Have faith in yourself and your positive changes, and keep it up. Hang tight.