I am getting better with it every day Kaffe. What I am trying to work through is the reality of just how much damage it did. For some reason, I need to know that in order to fully forgive myself.
I would never do anything like that again. There is no question. I only became a man that would so such a thing because of my unrecognized and unresolved anger and I am dealing/have dealt with that. I am a stronger man than I was then or at any point in my life. I am just a confused man who still believes his marriage never had to end.
I am going to focus on this issue when I see my counselor today.
