I know not to expect to many replies in this forum. I know newcomers is the place for that. But I'm also not in a place where I need that. I know the answers are in me and no one else can understand us and what we've been through.
I've had lot's of theories as to why we are where we are but I think the reality is just that our married years have been so difficult. I can't begin to explain what we have been through but suffice it to say I can't imagine anyone but my wife sticking with me through the trials of the last decade. I told her that the other day and she said she knew that. She also said that maybe that's what her role was. That's the reason we were together. I didn't like that much but whatever.
So we haven't had much fun. Always stressed out. We handle stress extremely well and it's amazing that people think we are younger than we are. We're aging well and we're both amazed at that. We did a lot of things to handle the stress and we have done well in that regard.
So I guess this whole thing could be summarized in a couple sentences. We haven't had much fun in our lives. It's just work work work.
Sunday night we went to a dinner. The couple next to us said they work every waking hour. My wife mentioned it to me on the ride home. I had heard it to. They were about 10 years older than us. I'm thinking it freaked her out. It did me. She asked "How old do you think they are?".
We've tried to take time off and do things but it's difficult to enjoy time off if your business is teetering on the edge and that one project could be the difference.
Hopefully that all changes soon. We've hoped that for a long time.
So we had another hard working day today. Worked a project this morning and got in with minutes to spare to open up our main business. Pretty exhausting. Maybe a 13 hour day or so. Pretty normal.
We had dinner together as usual. she did most of the cooking which is something she's been trying to do to make things easier. I did all the cooking previously.
Anyway. Nice dinner. Kiss and a hug good bye. Like nothing is wrong. Like everything is perfect. Except...
