Devastated

[Julz]

Good day today. We went and did some indoor rock climbing. The family really enjoyed it. We came back to the motel to relax and he called me Hon again. Probably habit but it gives me hope. Yesterday I could tell he didn't want to be around us bar went out in the morning and came back after lunch and he took off bike riding for over an hour and then went down to the hot pool for another hour. We are staying at a timeshare resort and yesterday morning went to a sales pitch and played happy families. They tried to sell us stuff and kept saying how great it would be for the "family". I so wanted to tell them not to bother as he wants out. But I played along with him (it was his idea to go to it to get a $50 voucher to spend at the restaurant here). Then we had owner drinks last night. He was going to go down on his own whilst I looked after the kids. I ended up saying no I wanted to go too. So we all went down and spent over two hours drinking and chatting to other couples. I drank too much wine - which is out of character for me. I hope he's starting to realise life without me is going to be very lonely.