I can't describe how I feel when I don't find anything. Relief mostly, and then angry with myself for acting so childish and being a stalker. It makes me feel like a hypocrite.
I don't want to say, "good"... but... good...
Not to make light as I, like others... like 9 said above... I understand what it's like to be so attached, how hard it is to detach... and I too am pulling for you!
What I was hoping to find is that you do feel a certain "buyers remorse" after you do your checks. Use that to your advantage and try to really amp up that feeling before you snoop again.
The only way to quit something is to keep quitting...
