Tad,
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25 years with someone is a long time. She was my best friend.

It is man…and I do understand….
Re your response to what is detachment to YOU….
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I’m not exactly sure

Is it that you are not sure or it hurt too much to look at it?
IMO, once the pain begins to subside a little more you will realize what and why one must detach. You see often we approach detachment as a form of punishment for her and even for you for that matter. It is not. It really is what you need to do in order to begin to heal and heal is what YOU need to do for YOU.
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for the first time I am seeing it without her in it. Not really sure if I like it.

You may not like seeing it without her….that does not mean that YOU do not have to live your life NOT LIKING what you see. Your future is YOURS Tad – not hers – yours.
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I don't believe she is. If she is, she sure does hide it well.

She is dude…..she is…I thought the SAME thing for a long time. Except now I can see it….know why? “Cause I feel a peace and my actions and thoughts follow suit…she on the other hand…is what I would call “quietly frustrated”…I can see it in her eyes. She knows what she is doing is not right – I can see the internal struggle inside her. Think about it for a sec. DO YOU HONESTLY think that she is going to show you her unhappiness? She is not. It is hidden buddy and FTR, I felt the SAME WAY you did….until…..I started to heal and really grow….until…I started to find my own happiness…..until….
I drop the f*cking rope!

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Right now buddy it is all about getting a job man. I've been out of work since March

Good luck dude! Don’t give up.
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Scared sh!tless.

Face that F*cker dude….face it…you really will be better off once you do!
In terms of the “finding a way to be happy without your wife” comment from MHL…Think of it this way….when you are really happy with yourself (maybe not your circumstances but yourself) you will exude a level of happiness, strength, and if you will….a “light” that will be visible to others. It is this that YOUR wife may become attracted to again. Unfortunatly to find this light for yourself…in many cases requires you to go thru hell and back so that you finally get to a place where you let go…let go of the M, let go of the fears, let go of everything that deep down inside you KNOW that you are holding on to. You allow yourself to be free. In short, you step off the rollercoaster ride.
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Finally, I told her that I would just have my attorney (I don't have one) contact her.

Games will not work buddy. It is manipulative if ya ask me. Oh and by the way…why keep texting her? Why keep allowing her to dictate what you need to do for you and the kids. Look dude, IMO, a simple please give me the information would have sufficed. If she did not, then I would have headed down to “vital records” or something like that and/or figured out a way to get copies.
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Why does she think that I am so evil?

Why did God put ti*ts on a cow? Who knows why she feels your are so evil AND FTR, she probably needs to justify her own actions. When you let go…it will not matter anymore to you why she feels the way she does because you will come to really accept that she just does. Are you evil?
Tad…you have lot of chit that you are dealing with and my heart goes out to you.
Know this…..

IT WILL GET BETTER

WHEN…..




YOU WANT IT TO

WHICH YOU WILL WANT TO WHEN…

YOU LET GO OF HER AND BEGIN TO LIVE….

FOR YOU

It takes a fews action…..

CHOOSE IT…

Then

COMMIT TO IT..

Finally….

DO IT.


God Bless,
Eric

"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
"Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!"
"Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans