Hey World, This is just to get some thoughts from you on things I have lost in this journey.
Trust - I think I may have been nieve. I totally trusted my wife. She would go for girls weekends etc. Never had an issue because I trusted her. If we would be out with friends. She would dance with a friend once in a while. didn't think much of it.
This is something that bothers me. I did trust and that hurts that it went down this way. Sitting here tonight I actual thought that was how marriage worked. Two people trusting eachother. I still don't have the answer where I misread the tealeaves on that one. I think i read it right for 20 yrs but the MLC monster came. Thats what I think.
Also, Even know I am Gal"ing. It doesn"t feel normal. Maybe people who have done it longer will say it comes with time. I am not as sad and those times are becoming shorter and shorter.
I miss physical touch and connection with my wife. Yea I do go out and its a good time with friends, but not the same. I know I'm not ready for anything serious at this point.
I usually ask what i'm to learn from where im at in life. I have learned a few important details on my shortcomings. I would be a better husband if given the chance.
Just some random thoughts world.
Let me know some of the things you have lost and gained in this journey.
