So of course you know the standard response here is, what are you doing for yourself, etc, etc... And you are GALing and that is great.
Here's the thing and is written of often. Gotta love the "helpful and well meaning family and friends"... NOT... that can also be read as "meddling".
I am sad to see that you are still caught up in the roller coaster (drama). Both indirectly and directly (by way of FIL and MIL).
When are you going to get off? And I mean that with complete sincerity and caring for you.
I am not suggesting you go dark with MIL and FIL.
I am suggesting finding ways to check your emotions at the door and not read into anything they are saying. Accept it as well meaning information and then... drop it...
It's the 7 step rule... I recently heard this said of Tiger Woods...
Why is TW such a great golf player? Is it because he practices more than anyone? He does not. Is it because he is more accurate than anyone else? He is not.
He attributes it to his 7 step rule.
When he makes a bad shot, he allows himself 7 steps of being upset and analyzing what went wrong before he lets it go and gets focused on his next shot.
When he makes a great shot, he allows himself 7 steps of being elated, before he lets it go and gets focused on his next shot.
I am sure that you will let me know that you are simply posting observations and venting. I've said the same and believed the same. And I believe that is true...
still...
How is the information you are getting helping you? If you need to vent, it means that you are still attached to the drama... still riding the roller coaster.
More fact, less drama...
"Talked to FIL today. He said he was hurting."
"Talked to MIL yesterday. She said W was acting like a child."
Simple information and statement of fact.
Rather, I see a lot of emotional investment from you in your journaling. It appears to me that you may need to look at detaching further.
