So, you obsessively check cell phone records. What's the payoff here? Is it distraction, is it soothing behaviour somehow? If so, find another distraction, another way to soothe yourself that isn't self destructive ,addictive or obsessive.
So, let's say you find a number of an OW. What then? What will you do with that information? How will it change things? Is it to your benefit or is it just another way to jack up your stress level and justify behavioural excess?
Hmmmmm.?
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.