Spoke with H. Convo about bills. I asked what the plan was. I have kids at home crying wondering when they were going to see him, etc. I suppose not a good excuse but I did it.
He said he has not seen a lawyer, or spoke to one or even gone on line to look for one. He said if he knew what he wanted he would have done that by now.
After talking for awhile-he says he thinks its best if we are done. I said so there is nothing more to say? He said you seem to think so. I said no I am asking you. He said yes lets get together today or tomorrow. H will call me.
He brought up he can't be forgiven for OW. And, I am too good for him. The kids will be fine. And all he ever wanted was to be loved for who he was. Just the way he was.
Yes, I admit I tried to "fix" but really help him. Now to find out he is an alcoholic. I couldn't help. The mood swings etc I thought was depression and encouraged him to seek help at the time. This obviously made him angry at me but never said anything till now. He has held this all in. Saying I didn't love him for who he was. I did and do I was trying to be a friend and a spouse.
I do still love him and want our family to be together. I suppose now he feels OW loves him "the way he is". I can't compete or change that in his eyes.
I would like advice on our next conversation if it happens. I have put myself out there to him. Said we wanted him home. Only to be rejected time after time and I will no longer do that. It looks needy I am assuming. Help. Thanks
