H was cheerful this morning, so that was nice. I was able to throw off my "morning crankies" after I posted, so that helped.

Struggling with the fact that it's hard to get him to spend time with me, especially without asking. I usually say, "I'm going to X", or "I thought I'd take S to Y" and then let him say "Sounds good, let's do it" or "Have fun". Other than one instance, it's been "Sounds good". We've been watching a 2 part miniseries together - he didn't mention it last night, and tonight is one of his "Warcraft" nights, so I did say, "Maybe we can finish the movie tomorrow?" and he seemed enthusiastic. Bad, though - need to not invite him to do stuff with me.

Thinking of texting him later to say, "I'm going to stay downtown and do some stuff - please have S in bed by 8:30, I should be home at a reasonable hour", and then maybe get a mani (Since I didn't last week) and buy a couple of books or something.

Thoughts?


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11