WAW, Filing as Fast as Possible

[aeolianchaos]

Hmm.. two days in a row getting up later -- I don't have to be anywhere, so it isn't keeping me from something, but it isn't what I _planned_ on. On the other hand, I think I'm getting more sleep finally - thats a positive.

Time to work those self-control muscles a little better.

Got an e-mail from W yesterday telling me that her lawyer plans to mail me papers in the next day or so. First response was some pretty uncomfortable emotion/fight+flight type stuff. Rather than amplify it, I just sat there for a minute or two and let it pass through me. Then I went and bought groceries. I think this is what they call 'confronting yourself.' And I think I did a good job yesterday. It was uncomfortable, but I let it go and went on with my day. I think that was the best thing I could do under the present circumstances and I'm sure that choosing to just let it pass through me and move forward is much more in alignment with my own goals of personal development and change than dwelling on it or caving in to it would have been.

I find myself reconnecting with the music that I loved and enjoyed before I met W. I don't know if I consciously left that behind in our R, or if I grew out of it, but I'm certainly enjoying reconnecting with that energy - it is not as 'serious' as the stuff I've been living, but it resonates with me.

Looking forward to grabbing a beer tonight w/ a friend. I failed to develop my own 'social network' around town as we moved here because W was working here so much. So, as I'm sure is common, my friends were basically HER friends.