I really appreciate the bluntness of some of the posters here. It's a really tough time and I have a burden that is being hard for me to lay down. I'm trying to decide if the best thing here is to limit communication even more or to just go dark. Right now she has pretty well got everything. She's happy with all her freedom and she still has me here to help her out when she starts getting down. In some ways by being here for her I'm probably adding more fuel for the divorce. My wife has been my best friend for the past several years and not really having any other friends makes this all that much harder. I know that when someone stops talking to her she usually starts missing that person at a random time. So far there hasn't been a day that has gone by that we haven't talked even though most of the times it has just been a couple sentences said to each other and every couple of days her and my BIL come over to shower. That part might be corrected this week though if they get to stay where they are. They plan to have the gas turned back on then. I realize not supposed to believe a lot of what I hear but still it's hard not too think especially when she says she plans to file next month.
I need to badly get a life as well. Which I'm finding is hard to do when even at my busiest times I'm still thinking about her. My life seems to just be standing still and that isn't living. The feeling of being helpless in a situation isn't one I'm having an easy time coping with.
On an up note I got another job interview this afternoon. Not sure it's going to pan out though. I believe they said it's for a second shift job and that's a hard shift for me to do. I need to keep my afternoon's available. My family is really struggling at this point in time on a financial and emotional level. I need to go see my dad in the hospital again today too. We really don't expect him to be around much longer..
