I always said that I would only try and get back with W if we could both change, both acknowledge our contributions and work on them, but now I am not so sure if I want to. Is this a natural progression?
I was having a coffee with other MF's last night (W is going to see Take That with W of MF's next week, but they were originally my friends), anyhow, W and D14 came in, didn't see us but MFW pointed her out and said how miserable W looked. About 5 minutes later W saw us and I waved.
W and D14 came over, had a brief chat with MF's (said she had to go about 5 times during the convo), when there W said to me she had called S12 but he didn't want to speak, I replied that I would have thought he was with his friends, and you know what boys are like.
When I looked at W, to be brutally honest, I didn't like what I saw. W looked miserable, down, moody, uncomfortable, thin (all her lovely curves have gone) and tbh, a right mess! I, again was looking good, spoke softly and seemed great.
When W left, MF said fair play for saying that about S12, I could have just gone off on one as to what the hell she expects after treating them like she had, and that was really decent of me. Then MFW said that W seemed so bitter and looked very uncomfortable, and most specifically said it was like W had been dumped by me by the way she is acting (she knows the story, from W and I). MFW then said W had told her she was surviving on coffee, cigarettes and wine!!!!
My honest opinion is that W had an idea and vision of a new perfect, problem free single life in her own place with an OM, but OM disappeared after a week (just drinks apparently) and she is not happy. She sees me getting on with my life and from friends, that I am happy (w has commented on the new me a few times now, and had a dig that I am a great dad who does things with the kids) and doesn't like it. Like, why is he so happy, I have left him and I am miserable? W's question if I would have her back I think was just fishing, and when I answered the way I did most likely confused her. I feel that maybe she knows she has made a huge mistake but doesn't know what to do about it, as I have always chased and fixed, and I haven't this time.
My assumption could be completely wrong, but she is acting like a typical LBS after the bomb!!!
I won't say I don't care, as I do, but I am not "involved" with it. I have detached quite well now.
The bad feeling I have atm are guilty feeling for not finding her attractive atm or not wanting her back, not the longing for her I had before.
Tell me I'm not MAD
Ohh, and I have decided not to send W a card or flowers for our anniversary on Sunday.
Me - 37 W - 38 D - 14 S - 12 Together - 16 Married - 12 Bomb - April 13, 2011 W moved out - May 13, 2011
The man I became is changing back to the man I was........... and more
