As far as GAL, I been stream fishing with buddies a bit. Dropped this activity several years ago when my workaholic tendencis really kicked into high gear. Got a fishing trip with 3 buddies planned for several days in August, so I am stoked about that.
Went out with friends wine tasting this past weekend and plan to go back for more next weekend. Met and glanced at a few women and it was fun to flirt a little! W texted me that afternoon to say I could still come by and pick up some things D13 left at her place. I texted back "can't tonight, busy, later this week?". Both daughters went to W's for dinner later and said mom was really seemed curious what I was up to. I had not told them what I was up to that afternoon.
Overall, my heart is generally not into dating. I did sign up for Match.com for a couple of weeks, got lots of hits, but later realized it was not fair to these women that are all looking for LTR's when I was clearly not. So I dropped it and decided to just focus on me and the kids. If someone does come along, I might not be opposed to casual dating though, but will have to take it play by play. There is the part where I've told the kids that mom's confused. We are still married and I tell them I love her. So dating would send them a mixed signal. I am not a doormat, I just choose to not have to seek validation for my manhood as a reaction to the current sitch.
I am the head of my own company, so time continues to be scarce. I mostly just meet friends for drinks / dinner or have them over for dinner. W's step brother is coming for BBQ tomorrow night. Going out of town to visit friends this weekend. I have a very wide support network, both here and out of state. Again, the girls are my #1 priority. My youngest - D13 really just wants to hang out in the neighborhood with friends. Says there is nothing to do at mom's farm. It is her summer, so I try to be here to police them. Can't really leave her with 13 / 14 year old boys for too long, if you know what I mean? Really, I'm OK with this. My time will come.
You are right though. I've really got to try and meet NEW people. This is a must and my new goal. Thank-you!
W's interest in spending time with family has really picked up lately. Yesterday again, after bringing D13 home from tennis, she and I sat around the backyard and had a couple of beers in the sun. I just let her talk. She seems to feel more and more safe around me without fear of a blow-up (none in 2 months). Today she is picking me up at 3 pm to go see D13's tennis match, then wants us all to go to dinner. These are all positives, but I try not to read too much into it.
Just read Munson's article. Wish I had learned this lesson early on, but it appears infidelity was not in her sitch. Boy does that really scramble everything (including my mind for a few months!). However, the theme of not actively participating in the roller coaster - very important. Even more important and missing from her article is maintainng a positive attitude.
Sorry for the long response. Just journaling and the above is more for me to sort out my thoughts than anything.
