argh! the panic button just keeps getting pressed repeatedly. her brother text me to say my wife posted I just wanted to say thanks to all of those standing by my side I couldn't do this without you I've told him I don't need to know everything that goes on in her life but I guess it's as he's said before she is still my wife and I should know what's going on. I realize shouldn't believe half of what I hear but still it does make me think she is very determined to carry this through. The noose is tightening. Next month is approaching way too fast
